Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Dreamt that I was Xiaolongnu with Fann Wong's face, and lost my memory a few times, shutting out people from my past that I don't remember. Maybe I have this desire to lose my memory and forget all the unhappiness and start a new life. Everytime I walk on the streets I would wonder how it feels like to get knocked down by a car, but that wouldn't guarantee a loss of memory. I'm even thinking of going for those brain waves triggering experiments to make myself smarter. Anyway, I saw Jolin in the dream, crying bitterly while reading a novel. I used to hate her but now I love singing her songs. I wish I could end this all, this is much too torturing for me.
